Looking Inward for Inspiration
This week is totally getting away from me. However, that's due in part to the three-day weekend we just had. It's also due to the heavy-thinking I've been doing about creating intuitively. I had to jot down the pondering below about the following doodles.
Anybody else feel similar? Just me?
Today I was organizing the craft room and making an attempt to sort through the miscellany I've collected. As I flipped through a file of some of my old doodles, I was surprised at how much they resembled Zentangles to an extent. I don't remember having the ability to create those type of patterns and shapes. But, apparently I did. It's made me consider the impact of constant internet inspiration on my own ability to create and be inspired. Though the internet is packed with inspiration and tutorials and Pinterest eye-candy, it's left my own inspiration and belief in my skills stunted. The pretty pictures, perfect results, and thorough tutorials have made my own abilities feel inferior and have left me with little desire to tackle projects because it feels like they've already been done and better. I think I really needed that revelation and reminder that I shouldn't compare myself to others, shouldn't try to recreate what they've made. I need to look inward and around (up from the computer) to find my path. How has it taken me over 40 years to realize this? Doesn't matter, at least I've finally gotten here.